It grabbed you and stole you away so fast.
I watched helplessly.
I did nothing because there was nothing I could do.
I couldn’t go in the room, I couldn’t watch you die.
I’m sorry I didn’t say goodbye.
I miss you being in my life.
I miss the little things you did.
I miss having you there.
You were everything, my nurse, my bodyguard, my best friend, my teacher, my mom.
I was so young when you died…I still understood. I understood that you weren’t going to come home.
People asked me if I was ok, I lied.
I told them I was fine.
I stayed strong, that’s what I’m supposed to do right?
The truth is I cry at night, when I’m all alone.
I don’t want people to see me like that, see me weak and vulnerable.
I miss you so much. The thought that I may see you again doesn’t stop the pain. I wish it did. I hope one day it will.
I love you mom.
Dedicated to my friend who lost his mom years ago to cancer…. We love you Julie.